Today, our social worker called and left a message. She asked us to call her regarding a baby that was born yesterday. I called as soon as I got the message but she was on lunch break. The next hour of my day was spent in full adrenaline mode. I called and left Ed a message, wondered about where we might be traveling, thought about flying or driving, figured out a house-sitting plan, and thought through everything that we'd need to cancel in the coming weeks. Excited but mostly nervous, I fretted for a moment that we don't even have any names picked out. No matter, we'll stop at a book store on our way out of town and get a book of names. (The books of names from the library gathered dust for 6 weeks before I had to return them . . . not enough pressure).When lunch break time was over, I had changed my clothes so that I might be properly dressed for such a momentous phone call (Nothing fancy, just my favorite jeans. Sweatpants didn't seem appropriate.) But by the time I called again, Sheila informed me that the "situation had been resolved." The birth mother decided to parent the child.
O.K. So these things happen. I only had one hour to get worked up, so the let-down isn't too bad. There's no personal rejection involved this time around, which makes for a softer landing. But once the adrenaline rush is over, I think I'm going to need a nap.
List of things to do:
1. decide on baby names
2. get life ready to turn on a dime
Happy new year, Kris! Here we are at the boundary of one year going into the next - so much potential! I feel your adrenaline rushes through your posts, and also the hope and faith behind your words. I will continue to pray for you through the year, and wait to jump and down (wildly) with you when you finally hold your precious baby in your arms!!! Lucky, lucky baby, to be so loved already!
ReplyDeleteLove, Lorraine